Exposed! Oh my gosh! Are you talking to me? Rattled to my very core and I don't know what to do about it.
I am working on this spiritual journey I had never expected to be on. To be quite frank - I am in awe with each step. Most of me wants to go back to where it was easy and steady and safe; pretend this is not happening. The other smaller part of me wants to break away from the safe and steady place... That girl wants to be bold and new and different. To speak out in ways people listen... people search for themselves... people find out what I am talking about.
My sisters... Women of the faith... Women in this life still searching... Strong women and yet weak.... Weak, designed that way to come along side; weak to be protected; weak in all the wonderful ways weak can be.
Make no mistake weak does not mean powerless... We women are fierce, we are protective, we are strong. We women carry the children, bear them from our bodies and if not from our bodies we raise the children other women cannot! We feed them and nurture them. We women bring up our sons and daughters, warriors for this life. We pray for them and over them. We break for them. We send them to school and sign them up for sports and dance; all the activities that will provide character. We fight for their education, we volunteer in the classroom. We make sure they get a dose of God and religion (but stop short for ourselves)... And someday we release them. We mold lives.
As the curser flashes at me...I reread that one powerful sentence... We mold lives.
I am not only satisfied there. I want to change lives... With my existence. I want to speak life into others with hope and love and service. Do you? Are you? Am I?
My thoughts start there but they don't stay there. I could go back to the beginning or start where I am or... Wow. What a fantastic month. The picture above doesn't start it... Doesn't end it; but almost like thunder - drops the gauntlet!
Again, almost like she was speaking to me... The sentence that rattled me to my core, "You want more of Him and you are ruined for Church as you know it."
I can't wait to share this journey I am on with you. Bear with me... As I get His thoughts together, as I learn the lessons my Fathers had for me... I will be introducing some very powerful friends to guest blog. Different backgrounds, different ages and religions but they are weak and strong... Some days lift me up and carry me forward.
Please stay tuned.... We are just getting started!