Sometimes... Sometimes life does not wrap up into a pretty package. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try things just don't work out the way they ought.
Sometimes your son will flash the girl in front of him while waiting for his turn on a water ride at the church summer fun night... In front of your new pastor. True story he was three or four. Sometimes your son will drop his first cuss word... S-Bomb on the church playground; also true story- happened last week.
Sometimes you come home to your daughter, waiting for you in the entry way with eyes sparkling, Had a great day at school Mom!!! My friend "M" kissed me... Also true story, she was 5. Fantastic.
Sometimes you battle infertility for ten years to fulfill a dream of having the aforementioned children... And no, I wouldn't change any of those moments... Not even the infertility parts.
Which brings me to the serious stuff... As I said in my last blog, I had a fantastically epic fight with my husband last week.
Sometimes it's just hard... To be kind, to be patient when you think someone should just "get it"! But that is my expectation right...
Without diving into all the yuck and the words that went into that argument. As I am typing, my husband is reading over my shoulder... Says, "words for the wind". Yes... That's what it was...
Anyway, last Wednesday we were both done! Done with what exactly, I don't know but sometimes for a moment "done" feels good to say, never great to hear or contemplate. We were done... I retreated to the couch while he comfortably settled into the MIDDLE of our bed, as if!!!!
We let the sun go down on our anger! Never a good thing. In fact, I let him sleep in the next day, not because I was being nice rather I just didn't want to talk to him. So I wrote him a note.
I simply said... He sees it his way and I see it mine, neither of us is wrong and we are so not right! I also said I didn't know what to do with it so... I was leaving it at Gods feet, he fixes everything anyway...
It was also the hubbies first night back to work so I didn't expect to see or speak to him for 24 hours. Which was also fine by me, though my heart was starting to feel a little guilty.
Then I received a phone call from the receptionist at work.. A gentleman was here for your lunch appointment-- true story. I looked at my calendar, I had no appointment. So I asked her who it was... She had no idea and asked for his name, as I was listening I heard my hubbies voice.... He was my lunch date! Never in a million years did I expect him!
Sometimes life isn't like you planned or expected. Sometimes done just means for tonight. Sometimes life is hard, sometimes it's complictated... Sometimes it's funny... Sometimes it's sad... Sometimes making up is the best part!
But it's always worthwhile!!!!