Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for this day, this day that you made. Lord, I cannot speak the words I am thinking, I haven't sorted them out. Trials are just almost everywhere. I've asked you to shake out of me the things that do not belong in me. The disappointments, the frustrations, the situations (people, places and things) words that I hear that do not come from you. Shake from me the habits you want me to break so that I may serve you with a right heart. I feel, in my Spirit the time to be quiet. Clearly I hear... "quiet... shhhh, it's okay". I believe that to be you. Thank you for this discerning heart, continue to provide me the obedience to obey. I know I don't need to ask you to be with me, you are always here... I just ask for your loving continued patience with me and the reminder of your presence on me and within me. ~ Amen.
The Bible in my quite time falls open to Ecclesiastes and my eyes look at chapter 6 (halfway into) verse 8.
Who knows how to walk before living?
I haven't read this book before, just bits and pieces. My Bible separates into sections. Ecclesiastes is in the Poetical and Wisdom Books which summarizes as follows:
[Ecclesiastes reads almost like a diary of a spiritual journey. The author deals with ultimate questions of life and death, while talking about the routines of daily life. He reflects on what his life has meant from youth to old age, and how God has played a part in that life.]
Who knows how to walk before living?
In this season or moment of life I feel like I am on a journey which I have no control over. Specifically reading a sentence regarding walking... I don't know what comes before that sentence or after that sentence, I don't know if I am reading it in context because I have not read fully to understand. It speaks to me since my accidental break and subsequent boot. It strikes me odd or interesting... that I broke bones on my dominate right side and as I watch my right calf lose muscle strength and reduce in size by almost half a teeny-tiny spark of a thought flames.
John 3:30 "He must increase, but I must decrease."
John 3:31 "He who comes from above is above all; He who is of the earth is earthly and speaks of the earth. He who comes from heaven is above All."
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also he has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end. I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives, and so that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor - it is a gift from God. I know that whatever God does, it shall be forever. Nothing can be added to it and nothing can be taken from it. God does it, that men should fear before Him.
I love the promise that God has made everything beautiful in its time. Everything... including me... especially when the world tries to tell me otherwise...
I also love... more than beauty... That God has put eternity in our hearts.... God not only loved the world so much that HE sent His one and only son to die on the cross to save us from our sins... but that He loves us so much that he puts eternity in our hearts...
To mean that means he's set the desire for Him within us... that we have a longing for something more and discover the scripture telling us that we desire something.. A desire for eternity with God.
But back to walking...
I have started to read the book, I will see where it takes me.... but during my quiet time.... and the question I will stop this entry on...
I was walking before... doing, moving. I thought I was living... Going here and rushing there. Involving myself in projects, taking up time and space when I clearly felt called to GO-away. I was walking before --- but was I living what I needed to be?
Who knows how to walk before living?
I think that might be my lesson in this time and place, I will let you know.