Words in Pictures was such a profound writing for me. So much so, I am a almost having a hard time following it up.
Not writers block but more like it's not done. Do I do a part two? Since I wrote it, many friends have shared with me conversations they have had with their own best friends and mothers, sisters... It's interesting to hear this quiet movement. These glimpses into private girl conversations that also spill into conversations with spouses.
I asked one of my oldest and dearest friends to send me a picture but life got in the way. She was running here and there.. And then it was published... She sent her picture anyway then shared with me the back conversation she had with her friend... About this blog, about these words in pictures.... They came to find they shared a word, shared this lie that the world gives them... Tells them they don't measure up.
Another friend actually wrote hers down... As a blog entry. Her word was lazy. The world thinks she's lazy. Doesn't understand there is a physical inability. I have been thinking of her this week... As the doctors have given me the permission to take off my boot at home, the proverbial "all clear" to start putting weight on my right ankle again.
I cannot help but be afraid... Just plain scared. I cannot help but measure up and sum up my own inability to walk and move like others. I am Afraid... And my other friends word crosses my mind. And in "health status updates" the inevitable questions come up... So how are you doing with walking? Have you been up doing anything today? When will you be driving? I feel like I want to add in the questions that everyone is glazing over... When can we stop talking about your leg and your health? When do you stop needing my help? That's what I feel like "they" really want to know. Of course, I know that's not the case... But when you are afraid you feel the pressure.
But in seeking the truth, the God truth - who I am in Him it makes me stronger. It gives me the eyes to see me for who he made me to be.
These moments of testing make me stronger and bring me closer to Him.
(Guest Blogger Anonymous)
In my life, I have been perceived as "lazy". For me, this could be the furthest thing from the truth. Each day I wake up exhausted no matter how much sleep I have.
Each day I make a decision to put my best foot forward.
You see... I suffer from a disease called Hashimoto's. I look completely normal, however, I am very far from normal. Most days I struggle to get through my very busy and hectic schedule without falling asleep at my desk or while I am driving home (which is totally scary). I have a lot of people in my life who don't understand why I am so tired all the time. I have heard things like, "you just slept all night, how could you be tired" or "you are always so tired, maybe you should exercise." that last one completely frustrates me because I am always exercising just to have some kind of positive energy level.
I want to tell people who perceive me as "lazy" that maybe, for a day, they should live in my body. Then they would truly understand that I am the farthest thing from "lazy".
"The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us but those who win battles we know nothing about." - Unknown
We all need to remember... many of us deal with battles no one knows about and in our world where information is instantaneous, where we clutter up our IPhone Calendars little circle dots, where we fly from meeting to meeting (in and out in a day) we need to intentionally build time in our lives to be people, real people. People who care about our neighbors, to have a conversation with the woman in the cubicle next to you, to speak to your child's teacher in between drop-offs... or to simply have a conversation with a stranger on a bench. You never know you might help... or save.
Sadly, we have gone from actually living... to completing tasks... and that was never the way life was intended. Let's unclutter our to-do lists and look around!
18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 19 We love because he first loved us. 20 If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. 21 And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.
1 John 4:18-21 (NIV)