At the end of the day, when the last glass has been washed and dried. After the kids have been put into bed, when they have their water and their prayers have been said. After I read my devotional, it's really been too long, fallen out of habit because there are so many other things to get done. After the book work of my Bible Studies are complete...
The house is quiet. I feel Him waiting. Waiting for me to speak with Him. Waiting for me to come to bed and close my eyes and start the personal conversation.
This morning during our time, I got too busy. I caught myself in thought working through all the things I could do to fix this or improve that. I bargained with myself, believing the lie that God's will would have me to this and that... When in reality I wasn't in his will. Thankfully, I took a moment... Realize and apologized.
Tonight... I hear. Speak with them... Let them know that I am here. That is why the short Blog. God wants a relationship with you. He wants you to get to know Him; His word and the love and grace he has for you. He wants you to lay your burdens and fears at his feet and believe he's got "this".
So I lay here, in the dark of night. The light from my smart phone shines as the only trace that someone is up in this house...
Dear Heavenly Father,
I have been much to quiet for my friends. I have been caught up in the things I should say. The stand I should take. Over thinking this writing... Thankful and blessed for the simple; a prayer, dark of night and quiet time. My God, thank you for the many blessings in this life. For the love of family, beautiful happy kids and a job more than I deserve.
Thank you for using this daughter of yours in service of others. I am humbled by the places I have found myself in and always within your grace.
Lord I pray for those tonight serving in the ministries of the churches we are involved in. I pray for their continued renewal, safe passage and courage to do what is right. I pray for those women you have placed on my heart to do something more, I pray that we are a blessing to each other. I pray for the events you have placed me in and working on...
I pray for my family. You know the struggle we are on the midst of... You know the hearts you are working on and you know how much some of us want to give up, turn the other way and retreat. I believe without a doubt that you have placed the answer within our hearts for this situation and I pray that you cultivate those answers so that we may obay and follow your direction.
I pray for the beautiful sleeping children; help their daddy and I train them up in the way that they will go. Help us to stand firm when needed and teach us when to hold their tender little hearts as the tears of sadness and remorse fall. Help us to build up mighty warriors for your Army. May we teach them to serve as you'd have us serve.
Lord, I thank you that I can rest in you.
In your Son's Holy Name I pray.